Cry, the Beloved Country

"Cry, the beloved country, for the unborn child that is the inheritor of our fear. Let him not love the earth too deeply. Let him not laugh too gladly when the water runs through his fingers, nor stand too silent when the setting sun makes red the veld with fire. Let him not be too moved when the birds of his land are singing, nor give too much of his heart to a mountain or a valley. For fear will rob him of all if he gives too much"

This is the passage where the book gets it's name from. This is how I lived my life for too long!! I let fear rob me of so many things because it has stopped me from calling someone or going to visit someone I feel I should. I have missed opportunities to grow by not taking a challenge. I have usually taken the easy road, this is the reason I have not lost the weight I gained from having Lola and Abby. I read this last night and I couldn't sleep because I was going over in my mind all of the times when I didn't love enough, wasn't happy enough, wasn't moved enough, or didn't give enough of my heart. Then I realized that this was the same thing. I wasn't feeling better I was actually making myself feel worse (that Satan is a tricky little devil). I stopped, got on my knees and thanked God for the opportunities he has given me and repented of the times I didn't take them and promised to always take them when they come up again. I feel so much better already!!!!